squirmy

i used to know all the God answers.
that felt good.
then for awhile i knew they were all wrong.
that felt good too.
now i'm figuring out that some of the answers were right, some were wrong, and some were rightish but with all of the love drained out of them until the hollow rightness might be worse than wrongness. 
maybe.
i'm not sure.
this feels uncomfortable.
uncomfortable is okay.
uncomfortable we can work with.